Life continues to be a challenge – both because of the events in it and the general ambivalence that still lingers around the idea of my survival. The crisis I experienced a couple of months ago has just about settled down and this week I was discharged by the crisis team. On paper it looks like a positive … More A Defiant Act.
I’m in unfamiliar territory and feeling rather strange. Life seems to be going well: weird or what? If I look back at the past few weeks I can’t get away from the fact that things seem to be turning around for me. By virtue of thousands of imperceptible steps, I’ve started to rebuild my life. It’s a … More Relapse, recovery and tomato soup.
*** This post may be triggering for some readers. Please take care of yourselves. *** September is drawing to a close and with it, Suicide Prevention Month. Talking about suicide is probably the most difficult conversation about mental health to be had. It’s also the most important. Frank discussions free from judgement and fear save … More I’ve lost my safety blanket. Thank f*@k for that.
I’m angry. Really frickin’ angry. This isn’t like me at all – usually any anger I feel is self-directed and turns into loathing before I can recognise what it is. Today I’m a maelström of rage and frustration. Get me. On the ‘About’ section of my Twitter and Facebook pages I write: “I’m supposed to … More Welcome to the sharp end of austerity.
I’m not one to follow trends. I’m usually much happier doing my own thing, probably because I rarely feel accepted by society, communities or groups of people. It might be more accurate to say that I feel unacceptable but whatever the truth is, I’m definitely more comfortable walking my own path. Recently two events have challenged this view. … More Belonging and the power of punctuation.
There’s an American researcher who studies vulnerability, courage, authenticity and shame. Her name is Brené Brown and she’s responsible for one of the most watched TED talks of all time. Her quotes regularly do the rounds on social media and in her book ‘The Gifts of Imperfection’, Brown writes; “I now see how owning our story and … More The agony of untold stories
Nearly two months after Flight 9525 crashed in the French Alps, the debate about whether certain professions should be screened for mental health issues rumbles on. It’s a pretty pointless exercise, primarily because you can’t detect the Witch of Misery in the same way you can with other harbingers of gloom – she’s a cunning little bitch, … More A quiet kind of progress.
I started the CNS blog to share my experiences of the mental health system in the UK, so it’s always going to be a little political. Sometimes those politics have to get specific. There’s been a lot of talk from our returning government about their policies being great for the economy and for businesses. I have … More We’re not an economy, we’re a society
I took part in a mental health awareness training course yesterday. It turned out to be a real eye-opener and I’ve spent most of today trying to process my feelings about it. We covered the symptoms and causes of depression and it was the latter that unsettled me the most. The trainer asked the group … More The Witch of Misery