2016: If the first seven and a half months are anything to go by, it’s not going to go down as a vintage year. I’ll get the boring stuff out of the way first, as way of explanation of my absence. It’s been messy… March and April – mental health crisis, brought on by putting … More Life – it’s not like an X Factor audition. Yep, I just wrote that…
Life continues to be a challenge – both because of the events in it and the general ambivalence that still lingers around the idea of my survival. The crisis I experienced a couple of months ago has just about settled down and this week I was discharged by the crisis team. On paper it looks like a positive … More A Defiant Act.
Things are really quite rubbish at the minute. I’m back under the crisis team and life feels incredibly tenuous and not very appealing right now. If/when I get through this I’ve got some cracking posts to write on all the shenanigans that’ve been going on, but for now I want to tell you about stories. … More A plea from the heart.
There was a story doing the rounds a few years ago that a certain ex-government minister had three diaries. The first was full of public engagements that everybody knew about and the second contained engagements that his team purposefully leaked to the press. The whole point of the second diary was that nobody thought to … More The third diary.
I’ve been trying to write you a post about love in all it’s many forms. I was trying to tell you about all the acts of love I’ve experienced in my life but it wasn’t working out. I wanted to tell you that there should be hundreds of words for love, as many words as there … More On love – or the blog that never was.
I’ve half-joked for a long time that soon there won’t be any mental health services for me to blog about. This week, that came a few steps closer to becoming my reality. I found out from a friend that my psychiatrist is moving to a managerial position. It’ll suit him. So what now? As my psychiatrist … More Abandoned by the NHS.
I’m in unfamiliar territory and feeling rather strange. Life seems to be going well: weird or what? If I look back at the past few weeks I can’t get away from the fact that things seem to be turning around for me. By virtue of thousands of imperceptible steps, I’ve started to rebuild my life. It’s a … More Relapse, recovery and tomato soup.
Saturday 10th October is World Mental Health Day and this year’s theme is ‘dignity’. Can there be dignity in mental health? There should be, but a lot needs to change. For a start, mental health issues need to be put on an equal footing with physical health complaints and that means more than just throwing … More 11,840,000 lives written off. Anyone think that’s fair?
*** This post may be triggering for some readers. Please take care of yourselves. *** September is drawing to a close and with it, Suicide Prevention Month. Talking about suicide is probably the most difficult conversation about mental health to be had. It’s also the most important. Frank discussions free from judgement and fear save … More I’ve lost my safety blanket. Thank f*@k for that.
When was the last time you had a good natter with a friend, or spent some time on whatever your particular passion is? I hope it wasn’t too long ago that you did either of these things, but for people with depression they can feel impossible. Struggling to talk to others and not feeling able to spend time … More Time to talk? Maybe not…